“Welcome to the real world” She said to me.

I’m quite the fan of Mr. Mayer’s old stuff. I don’t know if he was always such an arrogant twat but, if he was, it doesn’t really shine through as obviously back in the day.

I hit a plateau- again! About every 3lbs or so I do. I did my usual weekend binge-purge (its just routine now I think) and am back to restricting again with a less than half a pound weight gain from the “routine”. Thats incredibly less than what I usually gain after the weekend (even though it disappears rather quickley) so I’m not as down about it as I would have been any other day of the week. Actually, I’m oddly at ease today despite any obvious reasons. I mean I’m not happy and I’m bored out my mind but usually I feel like there is this dark cloud following me but today the clouds more like a light mist and, yeah, I just feel centered today.

It could be because its now 5 mothertruckin’ days until I leave! Its feels so weird talking to my friends and being able to say “What do you want to do this weekend?” again. I missed that because, unfortunatley, living where I do now I don’t want to give alot of my time to these people but maybe thats because I know deep down I’m eventually going to move back home and I don’t want a reason to be upset about leaving here so I just don’t bother with the people. I sound like a complete cow- well I kinda am, sorry.

Oh, I read “He’s just not that into you”. When I got it I didn’t realise it was, like, a self help book of the comdic kind. I thought it was the plot of the movie (which I haven’t seen). It was hilerious though and I swear it could have been written by me. Which just proves I’m not pessimistic when it comes to relationships, I’m just rationale…realistic if you will. Or maybe I am pessimistic and this book is just the excuse I needed.

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